I ceased fighting, I no longer swing blindly at an enemy I could not see. I could not see because he, was me. I surrendered to the program and began to grow. But as I grew my mind felt healthy, I thought my thoughts were strong. I was wrong, I picked the gloves back up and stood on guard. I forgot this strength came from the grace of God. So please Lord, help me to surrender again, and again. So that I may know your embrace, live in your light, and know love.